slow grow

My sister asked me what kind of person I am right now. I’m proud of myself that my answer was, “I am a person who is growing.” 

A huge part of me is always trying to figure out how I can be better, dissatisfied with my slow progress in becoming the person I want to be. It might have something to do with being a One on the Enneagram, or being a high achiever, and finding value in performance, or a combination of them all.  But slowly I’m learning that slow is okay. 

I’ve been spending time with some of my favorite little kiddos this weekend. After a full morning of hearing their new words, cheering them on for their newest dance moves and swimming strokes, I went to do some journaling. And I was struck with the realization that God, like us with these boys, would never want us to just be all grown up. He loves each piece of the journey, cheers us on in the littlest things. 

And so I will be more loving to myself, more excited about bits of growth and so not needing perfection. I want to love myself like He loves me.